Over the last couple of weeks there have been a number of changes that have all come along at about the same time for some reason...
The first thing to "go" was my little blue motorbike. It was the one that I was going to sell a couple of months back that caused me to "accidentally" buy the old BMW that Im working on.
It was a great little bike and was the same make model and year as the little yellow one that I modified a few years ago. I had been keeping it as my "back-up" which worked out well last year when the yellow one got damaged. But since then I bought the big black one and didnt need the little blue one... It was just going to sit there and slowly deteriorate without being used, so I decided that it was better that it "move on" and be appreciated by someone who would actually use it... So, I advertised it and after a couple of weeks I managed to sell it... and Im happy with that choice. :)
Next thing to go was my beaten-up old touring bike... Yes, the bike that I rode all through the Americas for about 200,000Km... It was a great bike and Im sure it had lots more Km of life in it too... But, Ive done the big touring that I want to do in North America, and like the blue bike, it was sitting around not being used and slowly deteriorating.
But I had developed quite an attachment to the bike despite its decrepitude and un-aesthetic appearance, and it took me quite a while to come to the decission that I should "let it go"... But at the end of the day its just another piece of hardware that I have accumulated and that no-one else really cares about.
So, I advertised it and then waited for several weeks while the occasional person showed some interest, till eventually the right one turned up and I sold it... again, for not much money but Im happy with this choice too :)
And the next change was that my cat dissapeared! :(
I think I mentioned about 18 months ago that I got a couple of cats... And that all went well for a few month but then one of them dissapeared one night (I put in a cat door so they could come and go as they chose). The first cat to go was the very "flighty" one, and I have to say that I was not that surprised (though I was dissapointed).
But the other cat was much more friendly and stable... And after over a year of outdoor access without incident I thought she had probably figured out how to survive safely... But it seems I was premature in that outlook because a couple of weeks ago, she went out late one night (after I went to bed) and I have not seen her since... And it makes me sad that she is gone (and probably gone to a Coyote's meal too!)... But again, I dont regret my choice to let her have access to the outside (despite the dangers), and I certainly dont regret having decided to get the cats in the first place... Id do it again though it wont be immediately since Im planning to go on another big motorbike tour next year so I dont want to have to find a home for the cat while Im away.
And then the most recent "change" is that my current contract ended... I was expecting it to end of course, but there was a little miss-communication about the date, and it was a week earlier than I expected. But I have no problem with that because Ive been working pretty solidly for the last couple of years and I am well and truely ready for a bit of a break at the moment...
The only problem is that I dont really know what to do with my break...
Talk about a "first world problem"! :)
Yes, I recognise how fortunate I am to have the dillema of not knowing what to do with my-self or where on the planet Id like to spend my holiday time (rather than struggling to pay for a roof over my head and enough food for my-self and my family just to survive like most of the rest of humanity! ... I am so spoiled!
So, Ive been practicing "letting go" but Im
really not sure to what end just yet ??
